I began school again therefore haven’t had time for my blog. Well here i am back again trying to get things off my chest while trying to help others not feel so alone in their pain.
So i previously mentioned i was sexually abused by my uncle.I still need to press charges on this guy, his probably hurt someone else by now and its all my fault because I am delaying the process.
I have this weird thoughts and feelings in my life.
I want to be abused. But I’m so scared of being abused.
Please beat me up and fuck me, then leave me in the corner to cry.
Shout at me and toy with me, I am a nothing, u can do what you want to me. I welcome all kinds of treatment.
You can call me crazy and other names. You can break my soul over and over, let me live in a dark place with you. The light is too far gone, it’s so far I’m not sure I’ll make it to a better life in time.
I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to be misunderstood. I don’t want secrets and pretenses. But being this way makes me feel like I got things under control.
I just want to be alone, constantly abused, forever forgotten.